Fickle

It is so strange how my life is so cyclical. I am probably the most fickle person I know. One day I am happy, I have a house, a nice car, a great paying job and the next day I hate my crappy job, and I have a house and a car payment that makes me keep my crappy job.

I am working on learning how to program, three months ago I was going to go back to school, a month prior to that I was going to finish getting my next level of Cisco certifications. So, what is it exactly that I want out of life? I don't know. Career wise, I suppose it doesn't matter all that much. Wherever I work and whatever I do, I am going to have someone who is stupid and arrogant talking down to me. I am not going to be happy doing any kind of menial tasks and no matter how much I make, I'll never be making enough.

I suppose it all comes back around to wanting to be my own boss. I tried to start my own business before I joined the military. I called it IT on Call. It was a lame attempt at a business model, but none-the-less I tried and sometimes I look back and I am quite proud that I went as far as I did with my two customers. Of course, looking back, it was doomed to failure. I knew absolutely nothing about the technology and I knew even less about business and what it took to operate one. Fast forward several years and here I am again. I am worried less about the stupid stuff like the name and the business card design, but more about the meat of the product, the business model and the services I will offer. I am learning how to program. I am in works with a local business owner who is growing in business. The deal is simply this. I will create for him a web presence that goes beyond static web pages offering his customers an interactive site that will attract prospective customers. My payment will simply be this, if I am able to produce a site that brings in business, I will capture the finders fee of 10% for every customer. Honestly, I find this the best possible deal. We are both in understanding that my primary goal is to learn the technology; but, if I am successful at producing something of value then I get paid. If not, I don't... but, I save face since I only failed to produce a free product and not something I charged to do.

Just think, in five years.. when I am halfway though a standard life expectancy, I might be qualified to change careers. I wonder how much it is worth it? F0r a career that is expected to be lower in demand 4% in the next 10 years and it the most susceptible to off shoring. Lets see what I want to do next month. =/ So fickle.