A Fresh New Start - Back Where I Was Five Years Ago

I made my 17 hour journey and arrived to my final destination well refreshed. I needed to stop at the 14 hour mark, as I started to think that my car was a plane and I was thinking I should just fly over the other cars. I quickly stopped at the next place I could get a room, and found that thier cheapest room was 92 dollars (104 after tax), had I just gone to the other side of the freeway where there was a motel 6 for 50 bucks, I would have gladly paid that, but no... I had already gotten out of my car at the Best Western and I knew that any amount of time behind that wheel would be devistating.

My apartment managers here have been great, although, Ive been running into more and more issues as time progresses. Right now, they won't let me take out the washing machine and dryer and put my own in. So, that leaves me with the problem of where to put my washing machine and dryer. In addition to that, the maintinance guy hasn't come to fix my washer, as the one they are forcing me to use is broke. Although, they have been very flexible on a whole lot of things, so I haven't been as anal retentive on this issue as I would have with the other place I just moved from. I hope that this is a one time thing, taking more than a day to fix this problem.

I just purchased a new bedroom set, and the best freaking matress in the world. Originally, I had set out to get the tempurpedic, as I remember when I laid on it back several years ago in vegas, it was the best matress I had ever laid on. When I got to the store though, when I laid on it, it was comfortable, but when I actually laid the way I normally sleep, I found it uncomfortable, there was Zero bounce in it at all, which I suppose is the selling point. Regardless, I went with a BeautyRest matress with memory foam top. It shapes to my body, but there is firmness when I need to roll side to side. Its freaking awsome. I also purchased a bedroom set to go with it, since i got a King size bed, and my current set is a queen (well, not the queen, but almost a queen, its either twin or full, I think full) Regardless, that now means that my trip home will be primarally loafing around and not spending money.

So, as the title says... here I am again.. in the same city, with new debt, not knowing anyone, and not knowing what my job is going to be like. If it turned out anything like the last time I was here. Im going to have a great time.

The Point of No Return

My birthday and going away party was a blast. April and her family are great and they made this weekend awesome.

I think I am ready to move on.

The 4:00 am Blog

Every now and then, I just wake up early. It doesn't happen all that often, but when it does it is pretty annoying. However, there is not much I can do at this point. I have two options. First, I can attempt to go back to sleep, only to find that I will be rudely awaken in the middle of my sleep cycle by my torrid alarm clock. Secondly, I can stay up and make this an incredibly long day. Either way, the outlook is certainly bleak.

Regardless of how much sleep I get in the night, waking up mid sleep cycle ruins my entire morning and possibly the whole day in general. Thats when I feel as though I am fighting against nature and trying to be awake when my body just says.. sleep.

So, alas, I will sit here checking my myspace account, posting pointless blogs about my sleep, and watching recordings of my favorite series recorded by my DVR. And somehow, I will more than likely find myself still late for work as I will be fully immersed in these activities to the point where I will forget to get ready for work.

Its cold and I am unprepared

I starred in my closet debating on what I needed to keep and what I could let the movers take on the truck. It was almost 90 degrees and I figured that I was good without a jacket. Little did I know that the next evening, and the following, would drop into the 50's. I am cold. I didn't think things through very well, what am I doing?

The clock is counting

When I was sitting at about 30 days out, I felt like I still had all the time in the world to get all my ducks in a row. Now I am sitting about two weeks out, and I feel like I am no further prepared for the changes to come than I was two weeks ago. I have all of tomorrow to identify what I will need to take with me and what I can let the movers hold onto for several weeks. I still have not found a place to live yet and friday will be my last day in my current apartment. I'll need to forward my mail somewhere. Even with two weeks left, wtih all the things I need to do, it just seems like its already creeped up on me and I've failed to prepare for the transistion.


I still havne't figured out how I am going to emoitionally get over all my friends here. When I left Oklahoma City and Korea, it was easy for me to leave since all my close friends had already moved on to their next duty location. Even in Korea, the mere fact that I was prepared to leave in a year made it bearable to only create friendships that could easily be broken. I guess I never saw myself leaving, for a while I thought that I was going to stay here in Panama City as a civilian and go to school while working here for a few more years. I've been at my apartment getting ready for the movers to do their thing, but it hasn't been easy to sit here all by myself.
Things will work out, they always do.

A New Blog

18 is the number of days that I have until I am free from the grips of the machine called the Air Force. That is also the number of days until I turn the young age of 28. Things have been moing quickly for me, it seems as though every day new opportunities arise. Thus far, only one company has given me a firm offer, but it would appear by the end of the week there will be two and possibly three offers to choose from. More opportunities arise, but I can't get myself to turn down great firm offers for the chance to get a possibly better job.

I am excited but nervous that I will make a decision too hastley, without considering all the possibities in the future. Six years ago, I made the decision to join the Air Force within a week, I have a little over twice that time now to decide what is best for the next decade of my life. I suppose that I can take the safe route for a year and see where that takes me. Of course, the safest route would be to reenlist into the Air Force and continue on the path of the military for the next 14 years until I can retire.

I could always just do what I had inteded on doing in the first place. Go home, go to school, live on unemployment for a little bit and relax.